I received a call from one of my blog readers a few weeks back and she told me that she had read my blog overnight from start to finish. She acknowledged all my efforts and was wonderful enough to understand how busy I must be — thus no updates to this blog for the last few years. Some might be wondering- if nanay is still well. Yes, she is well and thriving.
and for that, I am truly grateful to God for the grace He have given us– allowing us to enjoy borrowed time.
So, just recently I have just began journalling — using basic pen and paper with a combination of methods – bullet journalling, chronodex and fly lady system. I have always been a planner — always with specific goals and objectives in every area of my life (except romance lolz).But all of that Planning and control had to go out the window when I learned how to depend on God’s love and sustenance while going through tough patch in my life– single parenthood and taking care of sick parents. I throughly enjoyed those moments of abandon– as if the Lord is literally holding my hands as I cross turbulent waters, deep valleys and oceans and sometimes even period of isolation. i had come to enjoy it so much that I became complacent,to the point am not filling tax returns on time, not paying bills on time and just let clutter overwhelm our household and my life. Just like the toxins we unwittingly put in our bodies, we also bring toxic clutter in our homes and even in our offices.
This year, still with God holding my hands, I was caught up by the decluttering mania and the sense of forbodding that not only I have to let go of physical clutter but also of people who are overstepping their boundaries and taking advantage of my giving nature. The Lord is merciful but also just– and now am more courageous to say no and draw boundaries so that people and things will not go over the line– beyond my ability to cope.
I have realized that Nanay is just the same. We are the same in the sense that we always take care of other people but ourselves. and it was so hard to change because when people are used to a Yes person– they suddenly find it so surprising when the Yes person- says No. without even realizing that deep inside the Yes person was struggling to say No as well. So if you know of someone whom you always run to for help and suddenly become reclusive– take the hint– that person is struggling to put boundaries to protect herself.
I have realized too that nobody will reprsent a Yes person to defend herself as everyone have become accustomed to you– therefore you have to stand up for yourself–even if you lack the skills and energy to do it yourself. And finally, at least for myself, I have let go of all the defenses and just let God do the work on my behalf. Changing hearts is His job.. my job is to create routines for myself again in the light of God’s principles on how to live our lives–so that I dont have to second guess myself… am I being a bad sister / daughter by saying No? i only have to consult one self-help all time best selling book – The Bible.. and I can again stand firm in my decisions while also allowing or giving others permission to be different.But as for me and my God, this is how I will live and How I will serve Him will always depend on His character that he is currently revealing me at every season in my life…
Now He is revealing His character as Elohim and El Roi.. the mighty creator of order and beauty is also the same God who sees both our imperfections and our strengths.
so back to journalling, since money is still tight, I didnt buy a Moleskine notebook or a midori that costs anywhere between $30 sgd to $50 sgd. i am pretty sure that if I buy that expensive notebook or journal– I wont be using it as I feel like I am wasting money scrawling with my ugly handwriting — which by the way is not pinterest worthy.. and I prefer to write in unstructured way almost like the Mind Mapping method (or maybe thats only what I choose how my messy note taking method is ahahhaha)…so I bought a $0.60 cent small square exercise book (yes the kind used by primary students for Chinese lessons).. and covered it with scrap paper (which my daughter originally used to make a birthday card for me). That birthday card eventually became the inspiration for My Face journal (Financial awareness continually empowers)…Thanks to washi paper it looks well.. awesomely DIYed..am so proud of it given the cost and the inspiration :) See photo below..
the other notebook is my daily journal which follows the system used by Ryder Caroll but I also incorporate a bit of DIY FISH for habit tracking and chronodex for prioritization of tasks on a daily basis. I have been journalling this way for 1 month and have finished 1 notebook. this is now my 2nd notebook (3rd is the FACE Journal)!
this notebook is a blank notebook meaning no lines as you can see.. apparently I love writing on blank pages .. and I will writeabout this on another day..
within this basic journal i also have a prayer list.. which brings home a point about prayers.. read the excerpt below from pbc.org
Nanay have been giving away moringa cuttings and seedlings for a while now< and she have tended the plants and entertained calls and queries as and when she can manage it on top of everything else that needs to be done during the day> eg cook< clean wash laundry and also take care of my daughter> we have come to a point that we thought we should hire a maid so that nanay can do the things she love> besides she is already 64 years old now> in order to afford hiring a maid we have to make both ends meet and have extra money to pay the maid>> so we thought since there is a need for local source of moringa plant and moringa powder__ why don”t we start a micro farm>>> an urban farm with moringa as a cash crop>> nanay cant do it all< most of all we wanted to make this as a gift a realization of a dream> she have dreamed of a vegetable garden all her life>> but we just have to be realistic and just probably have to start with a cash crop for now in order to make this sustainable> our cash crop would of course be the moringa__ this way we can satisfy the needs of our local readers and followers and perhaps even reach a wider market>>>
this is our vision:
photo is from edible garden city their vision of an edible garden city is our vision and dream too
If you give $5 sgd, you will be rewarded with 5 moringa seeds (when the tree matures, bears fruit or pods) or you will get a branch/cutting or 3 bunches of moringa leaves (the type you can buy from the store) or a package of moringa tea
If you give $10 sgd, you will get a 10 week old seedling or a 10 week old plant grown from cuttings
If you give $35 sgd, you will get a fully mature plant which you can harvest from ( its usually a 3 -5 month old plant) or 1 kg of moringa powder
If you give $50 sgd, you can get rewards a, b and c
If you give $ 300 sgd, you can get rewards a, b and c plus unlimited support (via email and phone calls on how to tend your moringa plant until you become a full pledged moringa urban farmer yourself)
how do you want to be rewarded if you help us raise funds for our moringa urban farm?
So, the orthopaedic surgeon’s initial diagnosis was right. According to the MRI, I indeed have a meniscus tear. But its very small– which normal would heal on its own and would not require surgery.
However, I have an knee abnormality called Discoid Meniscus, which usually does not present a problem until an injury happens. People who have Discoid Meniscus like me, who experience a tear/injury usually does not heal as fast as someone who have normal meniscus.
But the Dr said he would try a conservative approach, so he gave me a cortisone injection and 6 weeks of herbal supplementation (boswellia, turmeric and ginger). He also suggested rest, ice pack and elevation of the leg as frequently as possible. If the tear wont heal in 6 weeks, he said he will have to offer surgery.
So here is my plan
1. continue with my pain management approach – prayers, castor oil packs, ice pack (if its untolerable and I need to walk/work)…ginger compress and olive oil/frankincense oil massage, soaking leg in Epsom salt, breathing exercises
2. for healing to take place– I would follow Barefoot Herbalist advice.. rub cayenne pepper on affected area and put BF&C on it (I still have the liquid formula and would soon be ordering the salve (external) and the powder/capsule formula (internal)
3. will also take the herbal supplements that the Orthopedic Surgeon gave to me (at least this one is insurance claimable)..
SO my mother asked, how did I get it? I said I don’t know.. here is what Mr. Google have to say..
Every knee has a medial and lateral meniscus which are C-shaped pieces of fibrocartilage that absorb stress and act as cushions between the bones at the knee. At birth, the meniscus is not C-shaped, but discoid (round like a discus).
With growth and walking, the discoid meniscus evolves into its normal C-shape. In some children, the lateral meniscus continues to stay discoid with growth. The incidence is approximately 3-5% of the population
So I am part of that 3-5% of the population who have a discoid meniscus.. it seems that I have a lot of muscoskeletal issues, 1. scoliosis of the thoracic spine 2. overpronation of the feet 3. discoid meniscus..all of which are non-life treathening but sure affects my quality of life.
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The results of Theranos’s tests are available within hours–often matching the speed of emergency “stat” labs today, though stat labs, which are highly inefficient, can usually perform only a limited menu of maybe 40 tests.
Most important, Theranos tests cost less. Its prices are often a half to a quarter of what independent labs charge, and a quarter to a 10th of what hospital labs bill, with still greater savings for expensive procedures. Such pricing represents a potential godsend for the uninsured, the insured with high deductibles, insurers, and taxpayers. The company’s prices are set to never exceed half the Medicare reimbursement rate for each procedure, a fact that, with widespread adoption, could save the nation billions. The company also posts its prices online, a seemingly obvious service to consumers, but one that is revolutionary in the notoriously opaque, arbitrary, and disingenuous world of contemporary health care pricing.
So the pain on the side of my left knee (extending to my hip and lower back) is still there.. the pain and tightness lessened after a series of physio therapy sessions (2x a week) and yoga sessions once a week and applying Barefoot Herbalist’s BF&C (Bone, Flesh & Cartilage) Formula directly into my left knee and surrounding muscles.
I would have been patient with the slow progress (anyway even soft tissue injuries take minimum of 6 weeks to heal), however friends, family and office mates are not.. they are extra worried about me limping my way to work and back home. Some would just say ” Rest, stay still!”… some say keep stretching etc.. a lot of conflicting opinions among friends and families and even with different health care practitioners (physiotherapists, orthopaedic surgeon, vascular surgeon etc..)
One thing I do know,,, is the cause of my ordeal.. 1 over pronation of my feet, my scoliosis causing spine, neck, hip misalignment… constipation.. and over strained adrenals.. so many things to say and write.. just not in a very good mood to write..
But one thing I would like to share is this.. I went to an orthopaedic surgeon who ordered MRI for me (thank God its not Xray).. I needed the MRI so I could charge the cost of chiropractic adjustments, physio/ostheopath/kinesiologist sessions to my insurance. And this orthopaedic surgeon suspects I have Meniscus Tear.. when all other specialists suspects ITB Syndrome.. while the GP says it could osteoarthritis caused by wear and tear due to gait/weight, and imbalanced hip — as my left leg is longer.
Anyway, this surgeon gave me 2 weeks worth of Anti-arthritis medicine which can cause GI bleeding and ulcer, so the anti-arthritis medicine comes along with another medicine to prevent ulcer/GI bleeding. Oh did I mention that the anti-A medicine is contra indicated for those who have liver/gallbladder issues. The Kneed surgeon, didnt even ask me…they only asked me if I have high-blood pressure (which I dont historically, but lately I had high-blood pressure which is probably due to pain)…the anti-A medicine causes high blood pressure that may even lead to heart attack.
Makes me wonder– maybe this is the reason why a lot of people who had knee injury develop DVT later on.. 1. the injury causes bad circulation on the leg 2. the medicines causes high blood pressure and clotting…
Anyway, to cut the story short.. the medicines went into my drawer again (just like the NSAIDS given to me by the GP).. yeah I manage my pain on my own via careful exercise and self massage. ID rather feel the pain and know where the injury is (pain are warning signals– turn off the warning signals—it doesnt turn off the danger).. the danger had to be put off not the warning signals.
knee hurts, fallen arches, trouble standing for a long time, standing on one leg all day long (which is the reason why my back hurts)==>these are my issues ever since even before this injury.. so regardless if the MRI shows ITBS, Meniscus Tear or ostheoarthritis– I have to do something about my feet
pain management – massage, castor oil packs, soaking in hot water with epsom salts, physio therapy 2x a week
anti-arthritis/anti-inflammation – Curcumin supplement/ tumeric tea and BF&C liquid (taken internally and also rubbed on the site of injury and surrounding muscles)
Healing slowly but surely– with the belief that I am making improvements holistically (these pains are pains I have been feeling since I was in high school at the time my scoliosis and my over pronation was diagnosed.. but I decided to ignore to focus on “more important” things.. e.g studies, getting a part time job.. then in my late 20’s when I had the chance to focus on myself again—started feeling these pains again..so I exercised. ate healthy, went to chiro sessions and then “forgot” about it in my early to mid thirties (child birth, work issues and my mother’s cancer).. there are always other important things that takes priority over my health issues..
I guess this time– I have to nip it in the bud. I am not getting any younger. I would not be effective as a daughter, mother and worker/leader/teacher if my health is not ideal.
One thing I know, most of us (like 99% of the population) have misaligned atlas (c1 vertebrae, the top of the spine right below the skull). One sure sign to tell is uneven hips (one hip higher than other, causing one leg to appear shorter than another) without anything structurally wrong with the hips or legs. This can cause all kinds of back pains and pinched nerves. In the last 3 days, I have re-aligned 4 people with uneven hips with a reflexology technique that I just learned. If you think this might be your problem, this could be something that’s worth looking into.
A good chiro can save the day, and I have heard many amazing testimonies from friends that I trust. But I am more about getting to the bottom of the problem. Bones don’t move by themselves. They are pulled or pushed out of place by muscles. Muscles don’t move without nerve impulses. And why are there nerve impulses causing the muscles to pull and push bones out of place? Is that because of poor posture? Repetitive stress? Accident related? Unbalanced nutrition? Unbalanced meridians? Misaligned chakras? There are many questions to be pondered upon.
One of my Christian office mates reminded me to read and meditate on Psalm 91 tonight..
Psalm 91 New King James Version (NKJV)
Safety of Abiding in the Presence of God
91 He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High
Shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.
2 I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress;
My God, in Him I will trust.”
3 Surely He shall deliver you from the snare of the fowler[a]
And from the perilous pestilence.
4 He shall cover you with His feathers,
And under His wings you shall take refuge;
His truth shall be your shield and buckler.
5 You shall not be afraid of the terror by night,
Nor of the arrow that flies by day,
6 Nor of the pestilence that walks in darkness,
Nor of the destruction that lays waste at noonday.
7 A thousand may fall at your side,
And ten thousand at your right hand;
But it shall not come near you.
8 Only with your eyes shall you look,
And see the reward of the wicked.
9 Because you have made the Lord, who is my refuge,
Even the Most High, your dwelling place,
10 No evil shall befall you,
Nor shall any plague come near your dwelling;
11 For He shall give His angels charge over you,
To keep you in all your ways.
12 In their hands they shall bear you up,
Lest you dash your foot against a stone.
13 You shall tread upon the lion and the cobra,
The young lion and the serpent you shall trample underfoot.
14 “Because he has set his love upon Me, therefore I will deliver him;
I will set him on high, because he has known My name.
15 He shall call upon Me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble;
I will deliver him and honor him.
16 With long life I will satisfy him,
And show him My salvation.”
Not in the mood to write a long article today.. but here is some update on the Barefooters Singapore Meetup last Tuesday